Stripes

I got a New Taekwondo Suit! Yes!

Addidas Grand Master - Finally

We Have Taken The "Student"

Trucks And Beer

When you graduate in Sweden you have a "flak". A "flak" is the back of a big ass truck uppon which you ride around town. As you do this you drink hideous amounts of beer and cider, you get drenched in even more hideous amounts of beer and cider. You scream your lungs out to Hey Mickey with your friends. You swim in fountains and take of your clothes...

All in all a lovely tradition.

I felt that this lovely tradition wasn't to be spolied on people who didn't appreciate it. I figured the best way not to do this was to consume hideous amounts of beer.

Ended up shitfaced, with a sore throat and a big fat smile. The weather was perfect the people that was on the "flak" were perfect.

After this rockey journey on the "flak" we went to various graduates' receptions, completely soaked in beer, inside out. Already sort of unsteady we had som more wine. Smashing!

Downside - Hangover the day after.

Warning - Next Year I am graduating, town won't be the same ;)

Hot Flashes?

Yesterday people ran stockholm marathon. It was 35 degrees in the sun.

I on the other hand practised taekwondo hungover for 2,5 hours... Hungover!

We had the test for admission to higher rank/belt last w/e but i was in Malmö then, so i get to do mine next saturday. Did get a chnce to do the crushing yesterday, and so o took it. Result: 3/4 boards managed, only left foot side kick still to do. 2 fucked up wrists and training ache.

Reason as to why i was hungover deserves a story in it self, stay tuned. Over and Out

Go Sweden

Swedish National Day today, horay! :D

Dedicated To A

Ok so I'm at A's place hence I'm dedicating this to her.

And to the sun, the summer, the sumer break. If there was a nobelprize for moments I'd give it to the upcoming days. The entire feeling is magical, the air is full of anticipation, happiness, excitement. Of to lazy days in the sun. Of to senior year in high school.

It is a bit sad, sad that people are of out into the world. An yes it is actually the world, we're talking Australia, Switzerland, UK, USA, other ends of Sweden. I'll be missing them, and sure it will be sort of hard to say good bye.

But life is like that, sometimes you need to move on, test your wings. It is inevetable. It is scary. It is wonderfull. I can't wait...

Imagine taking that step into the unknown, it might be a big step, it might be a small step. It might be uncomfortable and frightening. But the sensation of complete relief, no old chanis left holding you back, blurring your vision, complete freedom - would life be the same without it?

No, I'm gooing to dedicate this to the unknown, oh and to A...

Dedicated To A

Ok so I'm at A's place hence I'm dedicating this to her.

And to the sun, the summer, the sumer break. If there was a nobelprize for moments I'd give it to the upcoming days. The entire feeling is magical, the air is full of anticipation, happiness, excitement. Of to lazy days in the sun. Of to senior year in high school.

It is a bit sad, sad that people are of out into the world. An yes it is actually the world, we're talking Australia, Switzerland, UK, USA, other ends of Sweden. I'll be missing them, and sure it will be sort of hard to say good bye.

But life is like that, sometimes you need to move on, test your wings. It is inevetable. It is scary. It is wonderfull. I can't wait...

Imagine taking that step into the unknown, it might be a big step, it might be a small step. It might be uncomfortable and frightening. But the sensation of complete relief, no old chanis left holding you back, blurring your vision, complete freedom - would life be the same without it?

No, I'm gooing to dedicate this to the unknown, oh and to A...

Northbound Train

I'm in Malmö, was supposed to be in GBG. I'm not though (would be hard to be in two places at once), missed my stupid train.

So here I am watching a soccer game chillin' with my uncle and aunt. Oh and eating strawberries, not to forget. Don't really feel all that miserable though. Could've been worse.

Going back to Stockholm tomorrow, back to school, but only for a week... Ok I know that this gagging about summer break, but it is a huge deal. If you were in Junior year in High School you'd understand.

Did the SAT subject test today, should've studied more. I know...

Old Favourite - Utterly beautiful, amazing and well Stephen Stills is the reason that I'm alive litteraly (Long Story about my Mom, will update

Southern Cross - Crosby, Stills & Nash

Blue Blurr

Sat up doing a chemistry project until midnight yesterday. The project turned out so, so... But the picture i took of my project was cool:

I guess that is always something...

Swingin Life

Dreaming about the summer listening to...

Swing Life Away - Rise Against

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?

Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?

Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first

Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse

Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,

We get by just fine here on minimum wage

If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,

I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move

The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon

Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know

But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world

We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,

We get by just fine here on minimum wage

If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,

I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first

Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse

Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,

We get by just fine here on minimum wage

If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,

I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

Pointlessness

Finally, not too long 'til school is over, still there are a few things yet to do, but it's managable. Most of our grades are set. It is nice, but going to class just to sit of time. Fucking pointless. Makes you realise that school isn't too bad, you get to learn stuff, class can be interesting, if you do something.

Ok so there is ups and downs to everything, but well, right now I appreciate the calm. But don't think I would if it'd been like that all year.

The dream of lazy days in the sun is soon to be reality. Pointless classes are filling our days.

Atleast we have time to daydream during class now.

Distractions please come and fill my head now! Please...

Girly Girl

Bought a very pretty dress today. Felt like I had to blog about it. Now i have.

Back to the dress, It's white with Dark Blue details, calf length, thin shoulder straps... And I feel like a princess waering it, almost, my own version of a princess anyway!

Songs you should listen to dedicated to girls:

Isn't She Lovely - Stevie Wonder
Are You Gonna Be My Girl - Jet
Fell In Love With A Girl - The White Stripes
American Woman - Lenny Cravitz
She's Electric - Oasis
Married Girl - The Slackers
Rich Girls - The Virgins
She's Got A Way
About A Girl Nirvana

Oldies but Goldies

So my grandparents are in town...

They're old, very old, think my grandma is 81 and my grandpa is 84. They are also everything you'd ever expect grand parents to be.

Gray hair, round cheeks, questions about how you are doing in school.

When you go down to visit them there is always 7 types of cookies, meatballs, homemade jam and and lemonade.

Small kids always have issues about staying at ther realtives, grandparents etc. I never did. I loved it, my grandparents place was always a sanctuary. I got to do what ever i wanted (almost) and I am the oldest grandkid so I always had my grand parents undivided attention... Perfect! And they had this big house crammed with stuff where i could run around exploring newfound cabinets. They had strawberries in their garden, oh and flowers lots of flowers.

I remember how my grandpa always took me to the local zoo and how we fed the goats with old bread...

Anyways think I'd better close memory lane now.

Everything you'd expect from grandparents.

Funny thing they're nothing like my dad's parents... But that's a different story.

Scissor Sister

Yes! Final got around to cut my hair, did I need it or what!

So couldn't get a time with my regular hairdresser S, so today I had a guy, H, and he was from gothenburg. I liked him, so now I've got to decide which of the two I want, life as we now it is ful of hard decisions....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BwkFZ00bHFw

Better With You - Five Times August

so maybe i've got a lot to learn
or maybe i'm justa hangin' on my words
or maybe it's not a big concern
but if i raise my head would i understand why i'm
better with you

so maybe there's not a lot to say
or maybe i'm wrong doin' things my way, yeah
or maybe things will be okay
if i get it together
and do something clever
i'll make it better with you

so tell me where did i go wrong before you
before you came along
well it seems like i was lost
you showed me how to do things right
now i'm so glad that now you're mine..
so lemme say it all again

so maybe there's not a lot to do
or maybe i'm justa makin' myself confused
or maybe i've gotta nothin' to lose
but if i get outta line
just tell me you're mine
and how im better with you

so tell me where did i go wrong before you
before you came along
well it seems like i was lost
you showed me how to do things right now i'm
so glad that now you're mine

so use me dont let me screw it up
i believe you oh and i need your touch
just a little spice of you
could never be too much
i believe you oh and i need you now
to make it better off somehow....
to make it better off somehow

so tell me where did i go wrong before you
before you came along
well it seems like i was lost
you showed me how to do things right now i'm
so glad that now you're mine

so use me dont let me screw it up
i believe you oh and i need your touch
just a little spice of you
could never be too much
i believe you oh and i need you now
to make it better off somehow
you make it better off somehow

Volume of Revolution

Today I spent 3 hours on measuring a glass and calculating the graph that could represent its shape...

The Sun was shining and it was 2 degrees outside, but no, I felt like I was making the most of the moment, don't you?

Dedicated to J

Life has been crazy latley. School has been insane and summer is knocking on our door and the last thing you want to do is study. Not so easy to do with a hangover even if you want to. It's been like an endurance race:

going to school, going to practice, study, sleep 4 hours, going to school, going to practice, no sleep, going to school...

Soon it's over and we will survive, we will turn out fine.

I know you don't wanna hear it, I know how you feel. I know words doesn't help and that they are hard to believe. But it's ok, we're ok, you're ok... Cause you had a bad day... But you will be fine, maybe not today, but some day...

J's songs:

Nothing Else Matters - Metallica
Alright - The Lost Patrol
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
The Rythm of The Night - Corona
Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson

Caffeine As We Know It

This is My FAVOURITE coffee cup.
1. It's from Starbucks, I love Starbucks, shitty Sweden doesn't have starbucks, grrr!
2. It's pretty
3. That is a quadrupel Latte, that's a lot of caffeine, we like caffeine...

Yes I am addicted, I know. But i owe a lot to caffeine like sanity, some of my grades, staying awake after only 4 hours of sleep... the list goes on

Three Times New York Confusion

Ok so for the sake of beeing a good girl.
Here's a book I think you should read, not chick lit, not Harry Potter. It's a postmodern experimental mystery novel, which doesn't mean shit as it's postmodern and nothing post modern is what it seems to be.

It's a good book so read it anyway!

New York Triology - Paul Auster

The Bad Guys Always Gets The Coolest Oneliners...

"Tell me, ever danced with the Devil in pale moonlight?"

- Jack Nickholson in one of the Batman Movies

They wonder why girls go for the bad boys?

Simple: they always have way cooler comebacks and oneliners...

Story Teller

I live in an appartment. 6 rooms all in all and one is mine. I have three white walls and a black "nuck", which holds my bed. My bed is great, too bad I don't spend more time in it.

In the nuck I have the Black Spider Man hangin on the wall, completely besides the point but Spidey is cool and deserves to be mentioned.

We haven't lived in this appartment for too long, about 4 years i think it is. I remember when we first moved in, my room was empty and sort of cold. Sure the fireplace was there back then too, has been for about 100 years I think, but the room was still cold.

I got to choose what colors i wanted for my walls when we moved in. This resulted in the white walls (color orchid) and a then beige/brown nuck. Figured I wasn't such a beige person and changed to black a few months ago.

Over the years my room has become more and more of an image of myself. Every little detail reflecting my life, telling a story of its own.

The shelf with all the prizes and diplomas, dated and tagged, reminding me of all those hours at sea. Getting wet in a little dinghy, waiting for wind. All those long car trips, all hotel rooms, all the friends I made.

The row of dictionaries: French, English, Swedish, German, Russian for beginners. The Princeton Review SAT books. Horrifying memories of all language teachers and French dictation.

The old iPod cases and ruined headphones. Hinting that my eardrums might not be in the best shape right now. Explaining why my computer's hard drive is almost entirely full with music.

The old Taekwondo belts hanging on a hook, explaining all the bruises on my body.

The walls of my closet, cluttered with Surf and Skate stickers from different parts of the world. Not so different from the sticker collecting I did at 10. Just in a different format.

The Handbags in the corner, together with various shoes. I am a girl, I love shoes and handbags, period.

The Skiboots crammed up together with my longboard, waiting for the right season. Just like me. Powder covered hills. The beach walk in San Diego.

The books, everywhere, in drawers, on shelves, on my night table, on the floor... Everything from Harry Potter to Jan Guillou to Jonathan Saffran Foer. A diverse mixture, sans regulations, patterns or organistaion. All in a jumble, different thoughts, different oppinions and very different views.

The photos on the wall, The World From Above by Yann Arthus-Bertrand. One of ricefields in Bali, one of cotton fabrics in India. Distant places that causes the mind to wander of. Waking a spirit of Adventure inside you.

Pictures of smiling friends. Good friends, good times. And as we all know: it's all about the good times...

Shattered pieces, pieces from all over the world, joined together in a 16 m.s. space. Not related in a certain way, not alike.

But all telling something about me. Something about my life so far, hinting possible paths in the future. Breaking down and supportiong everything you might have expected.

Because like the walls in my room, I am everything and nothing you would expect. I am opposites combined. I am black and white. Without the two ever mixing into grey, just existing in the same space...

French As We Know It

My "Lovely" School

Kungsholmens Gymnasium

Had my French oral exam today...

And hell yeah, I got an Ex!

So my now my teacher is in doubt cause I have done well on my finals, but let's say not so much before, not to mention the 40% absence...

And yes it is my fault that I've been skiping, I know...

But anyways what before used to be a clear VG - "no way you're getting higher" is now turning in to a possible Ex so we're getting there, and I'm not taking the shit next year!

So kids, the lesson of today is:

Better a french teacher in doubt as to give you a higher grade, than on who is determined to give you the lower. Atleast you have a shot!

School's Out - Alice Cooper

German Grammar

Holy shit, I mean German is very organized, there are rules for everything. Word orders, subclauses, special cases, you name it - there is a rule for it. Funny thing is that they actually follow the rules all the time too, not like French where the only rule is that there is exeptions to the rules.

But how du you figure out what rule to apply? Hah I found the loop hole, hadn't thought of that one, ey?

As tired of trying to juggle with the words as I am? Kick back and listen to:

Wordplay - Jason Mraz

Morning Radio

Heard a song on the radio today which I haven't heard for ages, reminded me how good it actually is...

I Can Buy You - A Camp

Sneakers 'n' Stuff

My top 5 Sneakers

Blue and Black Vans High Top
Black w. White & Red Pinstripes Chuck Taylor Converse
Brown & Champagne, Suede & Silk DC Chelsea
Black Le Coq Sportif Deauville
Brown Low Top Chuck Taylor Converse

Ok so I love sneakers, I love all shoes, but sneakers are definately a soft spot of mine. Think I have about 15 pairs of 'em(45 pairs all in all). Yet i still want more, right now i have my eyes set on a pair of brown leather Coq Sportif and a pair of Paul Smith.

Issue is i have puny feet... we're talking midget size - I have size 34,5 in european sizes (abt size 4.5 US wo's ) And well i live in the land of vikings were everybody has sizes like 40-41 and they hardly ever even take in sizes smaller than 36...

Sucks!

Dancing Shoes - Arctic Monkeys

Annoying Things

Things that I feel like bitching about right now...

Why is it still 6 days left until my SAT scores are submited?
College Board is out to get me, I swear. They wanna prolong the pain by holding on to the answers for what seems like an infinity...

Why is my computer screen fucked up and why is my external hard drive bitching? I wanna be able to see Entourage now, I'm javeing abstinence attacks!

Why doesn't iTunes have the Garbage version of The World is Not Enough? Here I am actually trying to buy the fucking song, fuck legal downloading!

Why did i forget my iPod at A's? I want it back... I hate that Gothenburg is far away!

I don't want to have a Biochem test on wednesday. No comments needed...

As we say in Sweden: Would be a shame not to complain...

5 best Bond Soundtracks

A View to a Kill - Duran Duran
Tomorrow Never Dies - Sheryl Crow
The World is Not Enough - Garbage
You know My Name - Chris Cornell
Golden Eye - Tina Turner

Let It Snow

I want it to be summer now!

Yet I can't surpress this urge to go skiing. Looked through some pictures from this spring break and oh god, I want to ski. Bad!

As for the weather gods: Please feel free to make it summer all year around, but let us go skiing for one week a month, at the very least.

Powder to the People!

Confessions of a Nerdy Mind

I like math!

Fine there, I said it I like doing math. We have math 4 times a week yet i think it's my favourite class. It's the place you learn most for sure, it's the place where you develop most as a person.

Ha! Suck on that, deep nerdy shit...

Now I think I'm a gonna go derive something, maybe do some recreational calculus... Math whore to the CORE!

// Turning of my Graphing Calculator Now

And Suddenly the World Seemed a Much Better Place

I've done THE math test, and actually, I think it went fine!

And now a 4 day weekend! Yes!

Isn't life a bit brighter, isn't the sun shining a bit more?
Isn't there the prospect of a party tonight?

Songs to fit my mood!

Summer Sun - Texas
Summer Sunshine - The Corrs

Pain

Does anyone have an idea of how dizzy and tired and mentaly exhausted one gets from studying maths for 5 hours?

I know! 5 fucken hours!

Got my final exam tomorrow, my lovely final 5 hour exam... I feel so, so, so... there aren't words

So I figure I probably need a party tomorrow night, Little Persia anyone?

Boogie 2Nite (R&B Edit) - Booty Luv

Moral Conflicts

I know that piracy is a crime, I know it is stealing...

Trust me if I was rich girl, lalalala... then I'd pay for all my music, I would but hey, I'm 17 and unfortunately not so rich.

I am however addicted to music, I download about 100 songs a month, sometimes more, occasionally I buy CD:s too...

I could stop downloading, nobody is forcing me to do it, there is always that choice... The sad thing is to me that's like the worst choice ever. I don't want to stop.

I know that it's wrong and yeah sure I feel bad about it. Not too bad though, it's not like I'm losing sleep (that's caused by other things) over it or walk around in agony because of it.

I wouldn't steal a car.
I wouldn't steal a painting.
I steal Music.

Does that make me a bad person?

If I Had a Coin... - The King Blues

Girls Are So Easy To Please

Needless to say yesterday was fun, the actual party not so fun, but the pre party was awsome... very chill some wine, some shisha, really that's all you need.

Oh and J made me this awsome drink with vodka, sours apple and some other ransom stuff, the thing was almost only consisting of booze but tasted like cider, good stuffs!

Sunday day was not to bad either. I woke up sort of early (9 on a sunday) and went to the gym. Then I went to Saturnus for lunch with A. To top it of I went shopping, shoe shopping!

I LOVE shoes, I am a girl after all.

Who said girls were hard to please? Get them new shoes and a bottle of wine and you got a deal...

Nnnnhh...

I
am
so
hungover!

Not fun...

Listen to: Drinking For 11 - Mad Caddies

Multitasking

Whoa it's only 11 and I've been up for 3 hours already. I've been out with the dog, written half a speech, eaten breakfast. Talking about beeing a good girl. Too bad I still have two tones of things I still have to do today.

Realised that I have a German test on tuesday appart from a swedish speech and a 4 hour math test on wednesday.

But, a friend said to me, you have thursday and friday off. Hah! I need more time now! not later...

Oh and I have to go to the gym, find a gorgeous outfit for tonight, go get a spray tan, find a place to have a pre party, walk the dog...

Not easy beeing me hunh...

Song of today then -
Isn't it 'bout Time - Manassas

Wild 'n' Out

How tired can one get?

I'm fucking exhausted, and I've barely done anything. Beeing a teen is not easy. Can't even be bothered to go out, usually the thought of a good chill or a party cheers me up. Booze makes you happy. I don't have the energy to be happy today.

So now I'm a gonna flop back and watch the Eurovision Song Contest, that's right the Eurovision Song Contest, I've hit rock bottom.

O well gotta do some serious studying tomorrow, haven't really done any today. Probably for the better anyways since EN3A's graduation party is tomorrow.

Soundtrack for the tired:

What Can I Do - The Corrs
Ooh La - The Kooks
Sail Away - David Grey
By Your Side - Sade
Better With You - Five Times August
Luka - Laura
Close My Eyes - The Slackers
Sleep All Day - Jason Mraz
Danny's Song - Loggins & Messina
Colorblind - Counting Crows
Slow Dancing In a Burning Room - John Mayer

Amazing

It was my mom who played this song for me the first time, I remember thinking: wow, this is good what the hell is it? My mom usually has good taste in music, not always the same as me, but often what she listens to is very good. She's just not into Ska, Rocksteady and Punk like me...

For beeing my Mom it's still quite ok, hahahaha!

Anyways now I've found out what the f*** it was!

After All This Time - Simon Webbe

After all the broken stones
That were thrown, for no good reason
Inside, she is loving him still
after all this time
And though her heart bear the scars
No sign of healing
It's All right
She's loving him still, after all this time.

Ohh yeahh

Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of their pride, pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
the thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time

Now he knows his weakness shows
Selfish soul, never changing
That's fine, because she's loving him still
After all this time
And to the outside eye
You see you found a different guy
And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time.

Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of their pride, pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
The thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time
After all this time....

After all, after all, after all this time
Bones have to grow, and age it shows
Though we try and hide it
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time

And behind his tired eyes, she sees the boy with his arms wide
Who made her feel like an angel
Ohh that's why she's loving him still
For the rest of her life, she's loving him still
For the last of many miles
She's loving him still
After all this time

Beautiful...

Gilmore Girls

Just found out that the last Gilmore Girls episode will air in the US in like 4 days... That's sick, i guess that is what happens when you live in Sweden, might has well been living under a rock.

That's so sad, I really, really, liked Gilmore Girls. Sure it isn't as cool as Entourage or as complex as Heroes, but hey I'm a girl I LIKED it!

Fuck, means I've only got like 15 more episodes left (yes I do download it, but hey so does everybody else)...

Hope Rory and Logan end up fine! And yes Logan is HOT!

Bread Crumbs and Oil

Friday afternoon, Physics Lab. Abscence 50%. Concentration Level 5%. Serious work done 0%

We're studying electrical fields by watching bread crumbs move into weird shapes in oil. People are fighting over who gets to turn on the engine, I'm bloging...

Physics in our school is... well not that demanding, if you know your math and aren't a complete moron when it comes to physic the amount of time you have to put down into studiyng is well let's say not much.

But physics class is nice cause our teacher Mr. O is weird and keeps saying the most fucked up things. At least you'll have a laugh. Or taking a nap is often a good choice or maybe trying to set a new record in tetris on your calculator...

Physics as we know it isn't too bad...

Fuck of Lullaby

Sleeping is over rated! Fuck 8 hours a night, 5 is more than enough.

Why do you think they invented caffeine pills and grand caffe lattes with extra shots of espresso?

Plus as a teenager, sleeping a little during school weeks is inevetable, the work load = Mount Everest in high school - YES! even in our pussy Swedish system!

Besides you make up for it in the weekend, sleeping until after noon is normal. Going to bed before midnight is not (during weekends this changes to 3 am!). Following the regular rythm and routines, hell no!

Going to bed early is only acceptable if you're getting some serious spooning by some ridiculously hot guy/girl/duck. Spooning is also a perfectly ok reason to ditch your first morning class, that is a well known fact amongst all sane people.

Shit it's late, I should be getting to bed... Anybody wanna join?

(Yes I am a fraud, but i don't sleep much, that is true)

Rainy Days

I've been to school for 4 hours today, have we done anything productive?
NO!

Decided to put an end to the madness and skipped the last physics class. Besides 70% of the class joined me over to the dark side, we might be science geeks, but we're damn good at playing hookey too!

I'm better of going home studying anyways. Might actually do something, as oposed to the nothing we ever do in physics.

To fit the total worthlessness of this day it's raining, i like rain, don't get me wrong, but somehow i conect this type of days with rain.

7 Songs about Rain:

Red Rain - The White Stripes
Rain Must Fall - Queen
Purple Rain - Prince & The Revolution
It's Raining Again - Supertramp
No Rain - Dave Matthews Band
Candy Rain - Pauline
November Rain - Guns 'n' Roses

The 10 minute Carrot

Ok so I've been bleaching my hair, I am actually blonde otherwise too but well more of a dirty blonde than the light gold blonde I've been sporting for about a year. Anyways, I got tired of having to dye my roots all the time and as it turns out bleaching your hair ain't always so good in the long run.

So i decided to go back to my regular dirty blonde - of to by hair color!

In the store i found out that in order for my hair not to go green when i dyed it, I had to dye it red first... Said and done, I dyed my hair red, this resulting in me looking like pippi long stockings alternatively a carrot (depends on how you wanna see it i guess). Only for 10 minutes before i dyed it again, but still.

After having dyed my hair again, it was still sort of a strawberry blonde... Of to the store again to by more color. This time my hair finaly turned in to the ash sort of color i wanted, darker than intentioned to but what ever... Change is good and it'll turn lighter in the sun!

Did You Give The World Some Love Today Babe?

I'm not the happiest person there is, in fact most of the time I can be quite mean and grumpy. Don't be like me, smile! It might mean more than you could possibly imagine.

And not to mention the surprise, just try and smile towards a random person in the subway. I guarantee you, they will be surprised. They will be astonished. Hell you might even make their day.

I have a friend like that, L, she is always happy, or not always, but she tries. Even if she's had the day from hell, she tries. I wish I'd be more like her.

So go on, give it a try, if not for me than for the greater good or some other random bullshit...

Did you give the world some love today babe? - Doris

Did you give the world some love today babe?
Did you give the world some love today babe?
Well you gave me lots of love that's true
You gave the world some loving too
You gave the world some love today babe

When you saw a weary man
Were you quick to realize
The thing he needed most
Was a kind look from your eyes
Whan you saw an angry face
And the faces that you scanned
Did you soften up a bit
With the flower from your hands

Oh your heart is always full of love babe
And you gave me lots of love today babe
Will you also keep the world in mind
Tell me what you did for all mankind
To give the world some love today babe

Everybody in this world has to do a whole lot more
Than love the one they spend a lifetime looking for
You just can't keep your love in a cozy little shell
Got to love the one you know and a whole darn world as well

Everybody in this world has to do a whole lot more
Than love the one they spend a lifetime looking for
You just can't keep your love in a cozy little shell
Got to love the one you know and a whole darn world as well

Got to make this one big loving world babe
Help to make this one big loving world babe
Well you gave me lots of love that's true
You gave the world some loving too
You gave the world some love today babe
And you give the world some love today
And you give the world some love today
Did you give the world some love today
Did you give the world some love toda

To Someone

Inside Out - Bryan Adams

The biggest lie you ever told
Your deepest fear 'bout growin' old
The longest night you ever spent
The angriest letter you never sent
The boy you swore you'd never leave
The one you kissed on New Year's Eve
The sweetest dream you had last night
Your darkest hour, your hardest fight

I wanna know you, like I know myself
I'm waitin' for you, there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby, scream and shout
I want to know you, inside out
I wanna dig down deep, I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout, I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time, I wanna know your mind
Ya know there ain't no doubt, I wanna know you inside out

The saddest song you ever heard
The most you said with just one word
The loneliest prayer you ever prayed
The truest vow you ever made
What makes you laugh, what makes you cry
What makes you mad, what gets you by
Your highest high, your lowest low
These are the things I wanna know

I wanna know you like I know myself
I waiting for you there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby, scream and shout
I wanna know you inside out
I wanna dig down deep, I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout, I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time, I wanna know your mind
You know there ain't no doubt, I wanna know you inside out
I wanna know your soul, I wanna lose control
C'mon n' let it out
I wanna know you inside out
ya gotta dig down deep, lose some sleep

I wanna dig down deep, I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout, I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time, I wanna know you're mine
ya know there ain't no doubt, I wanna know you inside out

The Sky Opened and Hell Broke Lose

Flipped through my calendar today...

Realised that even though we have like 15 more "real" school days ahead of us we have like 20 more assignments, including a 4 hour math test, physics and biochemistry tests, prjojects in math and chemistry, language tests, essays... the list goes on and on!

And all i wanna do i sleep and party, hang out with friends, a whole bunch of nothing, fat chance that's gonna happen in the near future.

But I'll hang in there, I'll try...

Express yourself

Ok so I'm a talkative person, I love to talk, I love to hear my own voice...

Shit that sounded so bad, but well I'll give that to you.

It's not so much hearing my own voice i guess, I'm just a very oppinionated person who likes to share with her fellow citizens, all right! I'm writing this f****** blog, am I not?

Being talkative can be useful, sometimes, other times, not so much...

The weird thing is for once I'm actually supposed to express my oppinion, I'm supposed to express myself for 5 minutes, 5 lousy minutes, 5 minutes to say almost what the fuck I want... Then why is it so fucking hard to come up with something decent to say? Normally I would've done that without so much as a blink, now I'm just blank. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!

Why can't I come up with something profound, meaningful, dashing and preferably something my Swedish teacher will like? Why not today? Why not within the next 5 minutes???

Possibilities

Adidas in my world...

I'm running from boredom and responsibilities - Impossible is Nothing

Sandman

Just saw Spider Man 3, not too bad actually. Good old fashioned superhero plot, good versus bad, struggle with doing the right thing, some bad guys...

But come on, a bad guy made of sand? Seriously, Venom, the other bad guy wasn't to bad, but Sandman? NO, Not Cool!

And yes, Peter Parker in Black is way cooler than in Red. Finally the dude gets some balls. I'd choose bad spidey any day, I always go for the bad boy...

Oh and congrats Monsieur Sarkozy, vous avez gagné la France

Music and Lyrics

Soundtrack of today:

Saturday Morning - Eels
Have the Time - The Slackers
Jane Says - Jane's Addiction
Santeria - Sublime
I try - Macy Gray
Mind Over Matter - Sahara Hotnights
Vultures - John Mayer
You're the Storm - The Cardigans
Sugarbabe - Stephen Still
Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson

Itsy Bitsy Spider

Woke up at 2 pm today, haven't really managed to do anything productive since and it's been about 5 hours...

Or have I?
I've watched the two latest episodes of Heroes - when does the next one come?
Read 20 pages in "Doktor Glas"
Actually got dressed
Talked to L for 30 min
Bummed around in the appartment

Oh and yes I am actually getting out of the house today - I'm going to se Spiderman 3 with P. Yess!

Can't handle more booze this week, yesterday was semi sober, but still i got home at 5 am...

Entourage!

New episode out today, Horay!

Pearls

Sitting doing a bracelet for M, different pink sparkely shades, a hint of black, not at all me, but very M I hope. It's her 18:th birthday today, the bracelet is one of the gifts... one of the gifts for tonight, shit i hope she likes it!

Another Party, normally I'd be excited but today I'm oh so off, so tired. Tough partying the last few days, not at all healthy. Most def fun, most def not healthy. My liver can't be in god shape now, ah but who cares? Bit sad that I'm so tired tonight though, think it will be fun, good constellation of people...

Have to figure out what to wear, take a shower, pull it together. Then of to dinner with G and J before the party.

I can fool my self that I'm not at all tired, right?

A Head Full of Nothing

I feel strangely empty, my head is a complete mash of everything, yet I can't focus of any one thing. Thoughts fly by like fragments, short, brief and completely random - Kisses, Parties, Skiing, Math D, Music...

I guess that's what comes out of spending your day locked up writing a test for 4 hours, what a lovely way of spending my saturday... Nice to be done with it though, one thing of my mind. I think it went well to, the English part went a lot better than last time, i hope...

God this college thing is shit scary, still i can't help but feel that it might be one of the best things that might ever happen to me. If I dare to go, dare to be bold, dare to fly into insecurity...

As a friend so wisley put it:

Nous ne savons pas
Ou nous allons aller
Mais nous savons la...

Think I'm gonna listen to a bit of Mr Mraz now, might help, usually does

Stupid Admission Test

So tomorrow is the day, SAT time again...

Damn it's times like this you wish you would have spent more time on expanding your vocabulary instead of sitting here writing about not having done so... Atleast I have J there this time to suffer with me, E is doing it to but i think he ended up in another test center.

Why oh why didn't my parents put me in an international school when i was smaller?

Life as we know it isn't fair... nothing is, but would we want it to be?

If I could come up with something like this I'd die happy

Song for a Friend - Jason Mraz

well you're magic he said
but don't let it all go to your head
cause i bet if you all had it all figured out
then you'd never get out of bed
well no doubt
of all the things that I've read what he wrote me
is now sounding like the man i was hoping to be
I keep on keeping it real
cause it keeps getting easier he'll see
he's the reason that i'm laughing
even if there's no one else
he said you've got to love, yourself

he said you shouldn't mumble when you speak
but keep your tongue up in your cheek
and if you stumble on to something better
remember that it's humble that you seek
you've got all the skill you need,
individuality
you've got something
call it gumption
call it anything you want
because when you play the fool now
you're only fooling everyone else
you're learning to love, yourself

and there's no price to pay
when you give and what you take,
that's why it's easy to thank

let's say take a break from our day
and gettin back to the old garage
because life's too short anyway
but at least it's better than average
as long as you got me
and i got you
you know we got a lot to go around
i'll be your friend
your other brother
another love to come and comfort you
and i'll keep reminding
if it's the only thing i ever do
i will always love you

climb up over the top
survey the state of the soul
you've got to find out for yourself
whether or not you're truly tryin
why not give it a shot
shake it, take control
and inevitably wind up
findin for yourself all the strengths
that you have inside of you

Analyze this!

Big ass analyzing shit in school tomorrow and i wanna die. Analyze THAT!

Blank Spaces

I got the question, why do you blog?

I wasn't really sure how to answer, cause I'm not so sure myself...
I thought about it, then thought some more and this is what i came up with:

My blog is my mark on the world, mine to create, to destroy, to do whatever the fuck I want with... Noone can say what i should write or when, no deadlines, no predecided subjects.

In school I hate to write, I find it utterly boring and lame, I always do my essays last minute, especially if i don't like the subjects. But with my blog it's my rules, my topics, my oppinions... And suddenly typing away isn't that bad.

Oh and I think that if we somehow survive high school or not there should atleast be some sort of documentation of it, of all the upside downness, of all the pain, all the fun...

Afterparties and High Heels

Deprived from sleep and slightly hungover I'm back in ol' Stockholm, trying to sort out yesterday, smiling to myself...

Arrived in a sunny GBG yesterday, like 10 degrees warmer than here, life was good and getting better!

Short on time as always me and S got ready in no time at all, convincing ourselves that it is classy to show up slightly too late. Of course we were right and really, we weren't that late... Diving for the bubbely stuff we mingled around in the sun, met people I haven't seen for ages, took some walks down memory lane.

The dinner was full of "Lambos" and diverse pranks, having A and O to the table you can't really go wrong. Even the DJ wasn't that bad and my feet didn't kill me, not too much atleast.

The place closed at about 1 and at first we figured we'd just go home. But then going home at 1 seemed so boring, so we were of to an afterparty! Interesting 5 hours there, including, too much white wine, diverse wierd discussions and random interactions... The party was somwhere in central GBG and well our train back was at 6.20 am, still no idea how we killed that much time, think i took a nap at around 4 cause suddenly i was laying on the couch cuddled up with C, interesting...

As the sun rose we walked home frome the train, feet completely smashed, sorting out the night's events we concluded it had been an awsome night! very interesting turn out...

(Do i have to mention that S's parents were not so happy when we came home?)

Life, L and Me the day after...

Me: I just gotta go Cover up Yesterday in Make Up
L: hey, that sounded sort of cool, deeper than your hungover mind meant it i guess but still...
Me: well now that you say it...
L:we should write a song about it...
Me: we should...



Covering up yesterday in make up
Erasing the traces that were left behind
Like shattered pieces from a break up
But still the memories linger in my mind

I know it was a long time ago
And that we can probably never go back
But if we had the chance though
Would we let the pretty fasade crack?

Song of Today:
old CSN&Y favourite in a wicked good version
Love the One you're with - Nils Landgren & Joe Sample

Back to good old GBG

My sailor people are graduating and of course there is going to be a party... wouldn't miss it for the world and so tomorrow I'm of to Göteborg, I'm going home! Sure only for about 48 hours but anyways, details people, details.

Still haven't packed, still haven't figured out what to wear, still haven't finished my Crime and Punishment essay... About what to wear, thinking black dress with some white top underneath and my brown suede pumps, better to be underdressed than overdressed right?

Most def have to get some studying done on the train, guess i'll be bringing the laptop then... shit, I couldn't care less i'm so excited!

And yes we are all borderline alcoholics, we're in High School!

It's all about the good times!

The good thing about living and going to school in Sweden is all the holidays. Being very anti religious admitting to this is sort of hard, but damn having all these mini breaks because of various religious happenings during spring term is NICE!

So this weekend was prolonged by two days due to the 1:st of may, my parents weren't in town for the first two... should've known i wouldn't get much homework done...

Really words can't describe it but it was a good weekend, wine soaked but definately fun!

Starting of Strong on Friday by heading to Little Persia with L and H. Said we were just going out for a glass of wine... Broken Soldiers me and L got out of the house at about noon on saturday, went and had hangover food and Ipren at Taco Bar and then saw Music and Lyrics: a very chill the day after movie, didn't have to use too many brain cells.

Later P comes to my place, thougt we'd just chill share a bottle of white wine, and so we do, but hell that was not white wine, worst crap ever! Resist the urge to join P at some black club on a boat (ok i didn't have an ID but shss!) an turn in the towel at midnight.

Valborg: got an sms from T that the event of the night was at her place, interesting: T is Irish and we were promised bag in box and shisha! Interesting indeed, had an awsome time, maybe should have avoided those last glasses of wine, oh well, took a cab home and didn't have too bad a headache today! Fooled parents and Life as We Know It is Peachy